My Incomplete Fantasy: Relationship Ended

My Incomplete Fantasy: Relationship Ended

I don't believe the my next chapter had my journey to sail on my own after the nightmare that I had assumed of. Finally, our relation ended because he left without any word and I no more wanted to be the pressure in his life. I could at least understand that he is a busy man and he has a lot task to perform in his daily life other than me. And may be that's why he wanted to leave. Yeah! he said he got tired of everything so the first thing that he wants to giveup was me.

Yeah! this was heartbreaking that to me, my world crashed infront of my own eyes and i could do nothing. I could do nothing to save our world at all, where he didn't even had a second thought to save it: that breaks me deep inside. But out of all the heartbreaking facts or those tears; the funniest part was he left when I started trusting him more than me. Every time I told people that nobody is ever worth of my trust but stupidly I fall over him. I realize he left when I needed a strong support next to me. He left when I believed he would stay even when everyone will turn their face away from me: he proved me I am wrong. While, I still believe I am strong enough to deal with any situations, even after things ended up between us. What makes me loose my strength at some point is he left without saying a word. I understand may be for him to explain things must have been difficult; as we planned our future too far together which without coming into action has been a past now.

Today, even after you left me on my weakest nerves, I don't really have any bad word for you. Rather, I prefer to thank you. Thank you! for giving me the best lesson for  life. The lessons that helped me realize that my life should depend on myself. "Nobody is a Soulmate here, it's your soul and you who makes the living survive the crisis all alone"- thank you for helping me conclude why life should be independent. Moreover, thank you for making be independent where I realized I can achieve so much on my own. After you left, the weakest nerves in me became such strong that it gave birth to a new me. 

I remember being lost around with your memories after you left. I remember the uncountable questions that I asked to myself. I still have goosebumps to commend who much the memories of us haunted me like a nightmare. Yeah! it became nightmare everytime I remembered our planned future, that never came true. While I even recall how much I regretted all the memories I had with you because they made me sad all the time. Today I cherish them all, I cherish all those memories of us. Because those memories helped me to come out of all the sorrows. 

My Incomplete Fantasy

Cheers! To the time that left us incomplete. Incomplete within some moments, some memories, some plans and some fears of our story. Yeah! Our story which remained uncelebrated even though we planned it much more beautiful than it could ever occur in reality. And it also never happened may be because I gave up half way and you were too tired to run to me.

Although it's an incomplete story of ours there might be someday when we will face each other time and again. During these surprising moments I might want you to take two step towards me so that the half way incomplete can atleast improvise. But neither of us will be doing so; as these two steps are pointless infront of our egoistic channels and attitudinal barriers on our own. In our story I don't know if you will be the other incomplete half of our story or not yet. I know I will always remain incomplete without you. While I have no clue on how to survive on my own.

Here I prefer to sail the incomplete Half on my part; with a clueless destination to go for. I understand why I need to try atleast to phrase it complete: noone will put their efforts on it as it's my incomplete story not theirs'. Better known to the truth that no matter which way I sail for I know I will still be able to smell your presence there once and many more times in future. We will encounter again and again for times because you are the one l longed for ever since I started having feeling and dreaming. We started our journey from where I started to know myself. Therefore, I eternally want you to drag me so close to you. No, just next to you as there is nothing more important than you in my life. From prayers to pleasures you keep me believe in myself more than I actually do. Dear, dream it was just you; the one I loved and Longed the most for. Dear incomplete fantasy yes, it was you and still it is you in my heart.

You are My Incomplete Fantasy that still has a long way to go as a chapter to be continued...

Uncounted Preparations of Father

He started his journey of life ages ago. He started as a son then a man; but after so long years he can actually feel how his Father felt when he was born. As he knows someone very soon is coming to call him "DADDY".

"DADDY" the word itself isn't easy, it actually needs a lot of preparations. Soon he is going to be a father which means raising his child into respectable adults; by protecting and preserving them as their real life superhero. To own the title for the superhero/ super-hunk/ daddy he starts to prepare himself from the very little things. But somewhere nobody notices or realises his preparations for being a father.

From he all the preparations and check-ups from the very beginning  pregnancy cycle for a to be father; his feelings somewhere never counted. People say it's her pregnancy cycle but he can only feel it's theirs'. His feelings as "to be father" is excluded from the celebrations and preparations. Even though, he holds all his feeling in him. Most often fathers’ feelings and experiences in respective of pregnancy and childbirth is excluded: because people pre-assume only the mother is there during the pregnancy. Yet, he was also there from the very first day when he heard their child has started it's life in her. As a Father he went through a strong mixed feeling while striving to become prepared and to participate during pregnancy and childbirth, which was actually very difficult and it needed a lot of hard work for him which nobody can even count or explain...

During all the preparations he sharply knows that He has an important part to play during pregnancy and childbirth and even after that. He realizes his roles and responsibilities that needs to be supported by helping his better-half physically or strengthening her mentally; as responsible, caring and loving parents. He even knows the sensitivity that needs to be highlighted as a great commitment and a wish to participate during parenting as a Father.

As a father, he has that strong feelings during the pregnancy, and expecting a baby becomes primary focus in his life.  To him, becoming a father means great joy, excitement and expectations, and a strong longing for the baby. And this feeling to him is honestly  the greatest moment of his life.

After a long Patience then comes the childbirth, where he fails to explain that   strong but mixed feelings. To him, it particularly is very difficult to put those strong feelings circulating through his body into words. Witnessing the birth of his child turned into a fantastic, joyful experience. Therefore, he fails to phrase or explain his feelings into any words. To him this particular moment with his little baby is one of the dream that came true; which he finds both unreal and unique.

And this particular unique and unreal feeling he experienced was never the patriarchy! His feelings are the unexplained realities of fatherhood that none the father could literally phrase or explain in terms of words. His preparations to become a father was one of the real hard test to him. Where, the precious sucessive result  he received was the product of his love and commitments with his better-half as 'their newly born child.'

When Motivators Forget To Motivate

"Motivation" word comes from the word ’motive’ which means needs, desires, wants or drives within the individuals. While the word itself is the term that pushes an individual to accomplish ones needs, desires, wants or drives on their own. Motivation is one of the most positive word that in 21st century world talks and discusses about. From your baby step to the old-age several motivation and motivational speeches, lectures and stories.

But in the row of motivational speaker who try to motivate the 2nd or the 3rd person next to him/her, somewhere still don't understand the definition and need of the word motivation... sometimes when people more focus onto motivational speeches or articles completely forget to motivate others in terms of action. Yes, in regards of the speeches and the selection of the flawless word to the listeners were actually very motivating; but same speaker on motivation sometimes lacks to implement the motivational factor interms of action. Yes! The trigger is one to those who talks a loud about motivation and progress and success while the underlying truth is they never put their words of motivation into their actions.

Hundreds and times they shout-out that motivating everyone is their purpose still they forget; they forget that only the big dreams and big words that they have pressed through their lectures and speeches ain't enough to motivate others.  Sometimes people complain that they are not working as a team because they lack a motivation to work as a team. They highlight motivation as their need yet cannot figure out; how can they actually reflect the need of motivation into reflection? One easy way was to input every little things in appreciation and value everyone's performance as a team. But where the Motivator failed was; one started pointing out the flaws of the individuals in the team that always hindered the team members to come up with an idea. Yes! A valuable good speech to the team could be provided for motivating the team but on the other hand pointing out the individual flaws in the team members can definitely obstruct on the team performance.

So therefore sometimes the way you start to motivate others either with counseling or with action can differ the idea of motivation and motivating others. Likewise, Motivators might even fail to motivate due to circumstances and instances...

Simply, you!!!

I only have one importance left in this life; and it's You. Only, you!

One importance; no doubt baby, it's you..Simply, you!

Treasuring you within my heart; where my happiness come along you!

Oh! Love, there shall I need you! I seek you!!!

Mine heart when meets yours comes onto life;

The particular moment my heart actually beats for me.

My heart when it feels yours; makes me beautiful, the way I never felt before!

On notes, when my heart fell for you; 

I lost myself from me, as I couldn't neither stop nor control myself from loving you...

Now it beats next to you, for you and because of you.

Yes, You! Simply, you!!!

Smiling! I can't help this feeling because I  now have reason to celebrate my living.

Dreaming! Is now limitless as it never happened more fantasizing before I met you..

Living! Actually is now the luxury as my charming shades as soulful love of yours is with me... 

While every on and off mood swings I go through is now a fun...
Only and only because of you! Simply, you!!!

Weak stories

Every individual hold a story in him or her. While the point is what is the value of that particular story of him/her. On one hand some story highlight the importance of living, life, success, bravery, motivation and inspiration... Overall these success story which reflects how life has positive sides of living, the positive ways that makes everyone behind

Goosebumps

Goosebumps

Life sometimes unwillingly decides its own journey. There are hundred and tons of planning we make in our present so that we can have a settled and sustained future. But life barely runs on the planned track. So was my this journey. Before heading to Surkhet, Nepal several plans were listed from shopping to get together; yet nothing worked as planned. Several idea in my mind that I would do this shorts of activity to support quality education. But