UnAbandoned (moving forward)

If life is the faith, from when i have continued to live with!

I want to remain Faithful towards the end.😇

(People may laugh, but it took so long to find this confidence back)

Yes life went to the scarcity; Scarcity of living and loving¡?¡

And it flaunted me with a phrase; To survive.

Even if i will be hindered in-between

My heart urges, "Let's dive in; either completely over or you have a big win"

Uneasy sometimes, but still playing cool!

Chill my mind manage the balance- ' it's not the first time, you fool'

Keep going! Keep doing! Keep reminding!

That's all you need! It's a chain Don't break it "in-between"

It's way to sarcastic to elaborate'

To this point: i  have longed for compliment rather than the compromise. 

No more bargain, no more profit or even the losses!

I want to swing realistic, imperfect and ongoing... 

Till and towards the last!

Abandonment

ABANDONMENT

Never had I dreamed to travel so far...

Never could I imagine, your celebrations at par...

Without me; this precious!  

Without me, your charm filled with ARMOUR!!!

For some luxury, For little power POWER

I was banished to Thou's Abandonment.

Nor did I Lie: Nor did I die...

I believe soon my journey would END, 

Yet promise to wait, And the DAY will come

thy your regrets!  thy your loss!

Leading thou towards my day...

I promise to wait, And the DAY will come..

Day would be me, underneath the coffin,

And you will be my observer, peaceful into the sleep!

you will see me carefree and relaxed; from the moment, from the sound.

Your tears might roll out. Yet, I will abandon you, the way you abandoned me.

Romance as eternal Monarch

Obliged to monarch; 

where romance finds the passion!

May these lanterns enlighten your way towards the one! 

Surely it would be the journey with trails and errors.

If lust ever meets you, teach it to love!

If love ever finds you, cherish with life!!!

The more you love, the more it flames,

It's no fire;yet it blames!

Blames the uncertainty and the lies;

It will hurt. It will pain.

Unless you love. Just don't deny.

You may win... You may lose...

Trust your heart, until you meet

 'Romance as eternal Monarch'.

Dear BUTTERFLY

I readout somewhere, "while BUTTERFLY in one hand seems delicate; on the other it symbolizes depth and power." I felt funny reading the line, at that point. And for a person who is  rough edge hopeless spoiled personality, it would obviously not go with the flow. I won't deny that somewhere inside I was dead with lack of hopes and motivation. I also accept I was lacking the determination and inspiration for anything new in life along the personality issues. 

Yes, my life wasn't going interesting or any adventures unless you entered. I bet neither you nor I have this first proper impression over each other. Seriously I find you so annoying with that cold arrogant look of yours. Thanks to those opportunity and compulsive situations that made us meet more; while it even helped us to create many more impressions. I can just imagine what stuff are running crossing your mind while reading this😅. I realized my judgemental opinion towards you gradually transforming from the arrogant larva to delicate butterfly. Of course I only got the meaning of "while BUTTERFLY in one hand seems delicate; on the other it symbolizes depth and power" after getting along with you. You looked arrogant yet you were delicate; you were delicate yet you always drove me deep. I know I Am going to complicate this but trust me I won't regret this complication. 

After loosing the determination, motivation, hopes and compassion for anything new may be you were the U-turn that diverted me towards the passion. I won't mind saying the irritating larva to my eye had transformed into a butterfly which was inspiring me with a passion to glow and grow. Dear BUTTERFLY! you brought me this sensation of warmth and filled me with energies all over. It does sound dramatic but I have realized many magical moments being around with you. I don't want to idolize you as an angel watching over me. The flames of passion to dream from you vs the feeling of jealousy to see you around anybody else vs satisfaction of finding you around I always felt as if am struggling my soul again and again; and I don't find any other words to express it.

Dear Butterfly'! Without letting you know, " you have been this impulsive nature of mine still I adore you from my heart and soul. Every single time you have passed by I have struggled to keep myself calm and controlled by not letting out the hearts expression over my face. I feel like my belly full of butterflies cuddling and dancing from inside. But the best part of these struggles are those surprising encounters of ours. Trust me your face can't lie or may I say i wish I could surprise you more occasionally😉." It sounds like a cheesy chemistry but no you have always belonged to me as my secret romance. The romance that I never expressed; rather deep down my heart always cherished. 

Out of all the chemistries, I choose you to be  My BUTTERFLY. BUTTERFLY, that has guided me towards the journey of practical dreams that I want to achieve. Since you are the cause and effect for my passion and hope, I wish to save you in my short stories as a secret influencer. Dear influencer, I do accept I have a secret BUTTERFLY and that's you... The one that have gone through all my lines.

Thank you!!!